WILLIAM
C. YOUNT
Hagerstown,
MD
www.billyount.com
April 21, 2008
IN DESPERATION I FOUND MYSELF SHOUTING BOLDLY
TO MY 'BOSS' WHO OWNS EVERYTHING..."I WANT MORE MONEY!" Hebrews 4:16
Hebrews 4:16 "Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace that we may
obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
The word 'boldly' in this verse means 'all out-spokeness', frankness, bluntness,
to make public. In fact this message may be too bold to print.
For a while now the frustration had been building on the inside of me concerning
the need for more finances in our family and ministry. It seemed I was being
tested while a seemingly divine frustration had overshadowed my life. I had
prayed and asked the Lord for finances to meet the needs but it seemed the
heavens were brass. I searched my heart and yet this frustration kept growing on
the inside of me. A thought went through my mind and spirit...."I wish I could
go somewhere where there is no one around like in an open field and look up to
the heavens and shout out my desperate financial frustrations to God. At first I
rebuked the thought thinking it would be irreverent to shout like that to the
Lord. I dismissed that thought only to have it return again and again later. I
was on a ministry trip when a sweet little old sister in the Lord came up to me
who had never met me before and said, "I believe I have a word for you." I said
to her, "what is it?" She said..."Holy Holler!" She said, "I know that doesn't
make any sense." I immediately responded to her, "It makes a whole lot of sense
to me! Thank you!!"
"BE BOLD ALL THE WAY TO HIS THRONE OF GRACE!"
Returning home I still was hesitant to think that God would allow me to release
my frustration with a 'Holy Holler' to high heavens. But I was sensing now that
it was perhaps the Holy Spirit in me wanting to release me from my frustration
by allowing Him to shout it out through me and for me! I began to realize that I
would not be shouting my frustration at God but I would be shouting to Him.
First to release myself of my frustration and second to let God know that after
thirty five years of serving Him I had never asked for a raise in pay...yet. Not
that I deserved it but I thought in Isaiah it says to "come, let us reason
together..." That sounds like God can be reasoned with. Since He knew what was
in my heart anyway would He mind if I put words to it and even dare to shout it?
What did I have to lose? At least perhaps my frustration would have an outlet
and I could be free from it at last. And since I was coming boldly to the throne
of grace to receive mercy in time of need why should I fear? Before you judge me
and say, "Bill, who do you think you are to think that you could act like this
with such boldness? I confess it is very bold and I had some reserve about it
but Hebrews tell us to be bold all the way to His throne of grace!
I WASN'T SHOUTING AT GOD BUT TO HIM AS THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS CRYING OUT THROUGH ME
RELEASING ME OF MY 'DIVINE' FRUSTRATION!
Finally one morning I found myself broken before the Lord confessing my sins and
shortcomings. "Lord, have mercy on me a sinner!" I am learning before there's a
breaking in the heavens there must be a breaking before the Lord and a crying
out for His mercy and grace in our time of need. Although being extremely broken
before the Lord that 'holy frustration' seemed to still be inside of me wanting
to be fully released. That same morning after taking my son to school I was
listening to the radio and a song came on about crying out with a shout to the
Lord out of desperation. It reminded me of Luke 18: where the blind man was told
that Jesus was passing by and he cried out to Jesus to have mercy on him. Luke
18:39 "And they which went before rebuked him that he should be quiet; but he
shouted all the more louder!" I believe that shout is still being heard around
the world in every nation who has read the Bible. 40. "And Jesus stood and
commanded him to be brought to Him." I felt this is my moment. I continued to
drive to our city fairgrounds where there should be nobody there at 8:30 in the
morning. I drove there and got out of my car. I waited until a couple people
left that area. I did see a couple workers way on the other side of the field
and figured by the time they could get to me when they heard me shout I could be
in my car and half way home.
I got out of my car and looked up to heaven and shouting as loud as I could..."I
want more money! I want more money!" At first a great fear of what God could do
came over me but then I felt a release sweep over my soul. I drove home. At 12
noon a knock came on the door and a brother handed me $23.00. Two hours later
the mail man came. In the mail box were checks totaling over seventeen hundred
dollars! The largest amount of money we have ever received in one day in thirty
five years! And I hadn't even ministered anywhere that day...except unto the
Lord! I had obtained His mercy and found His grace and He had received my shout
of desperate frustration! The next day over seven hundred dollars came in the
mail. And there has been a breakthrough financially for us since that day. With
two shouts the heavens cracked open over our finances and my frustration was
gone!
IN UNIQUE AND UNUSUAL WAYS THE HOLY SPIRIT WANTS TO RELEASE US FROM OUR
DEPRESSION, ANXIETY AND FRUSTRATIONS
I don't plan on starting a 'shouting to the heavens' ministry. It probably will
never work for me again. It may not work for you. But I believe this hour the
Holy Spirit is brooding over His Body to release us from our depression, anxiety
and frustrations in unique and unusual ways as we yield to His leading. Search
the scriptures and see how many time God's people cried out with a loud voice
and was heard for their strong cries. Remember when your children were small and
they would just wimper a little but when they began to shout because something
was bothering them you ran to where they were to answer their loud cry. I
believe our heavenly Father is very much the same way. Jesus himself was heard
because of His strong crying out to His Father!
Hebrews 5:7 "Who in the days of His flesh when He had offered up prayers and
supplications 'with strong crying and tears' unto Him who was able to save Him
from death, and was heard in that He feared."
Isaiah 44:23 "...Shout you lower parts of the earth..." The heavens are waiting
to hear from you.
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